Since the new year began, (even though we know time is an illusion) I have felt some pockets of lightness in a way I haven’t felt in years. This is such a relief to me as I’m emerging from about eighteen months of yet another Dark Night of The Soul. Those hellish depths need to be renamed as they do not only last a night, and can occur several times in one’s life.
During this personal transformation time one is forced to look at everything about one’s self and life that is holding back progression on doing the the thing you came here to do. You know, that thing you’ve been resisting and talking yourself out of for years, the thing that requires faith, surrender, and trust in God and one’s self that you’ll land safely IF you actually take the leap.
I was shown and became aware of behaviors, thoughts, choices I was unconsciously acting out. Let me tell you – it ain’t pretty when you see yourself in this way lol, but necessary, to make changes and new choices, to forgive and love yourself with compassion. To see that this is because of that, which began when this happened. Abundant epiphanies are available when you sit down, get quiet, ask and listen.
Everything else one tries just does not work out; finances/jobs, relationships, plans, etc. It seems every other option is stripped away, leaving only the thing you really want to do, or know you’re “supposed” to be doing, but can’t see how you’ll make it work. It’s frustrating, overwhelming, and truly maddening! There is just no flow, and nothing goes right.
‘Spiritual’ attacks can be relentless and brutal during this time. It feels as if you’re being tested in every way possible. You are. Strength of faith, integrity, and will to continue living are all tested to the nth degree to see if you can give it all to God, to your inner, greater Being.
It is important to remember and know you will come out of it stronger in the end, which will be a new beginning. I have started over too many times to count at this point, but the Dark Nights always bring me to a better place, more aligned with the true me, stripped of a bit more of the shite imposed by this world. Lighter, wiser, stronger.
If you’re going through this right now, surrender to it. Just give up and give in to all of it. Accept that this is happening, go into the depths, the darkness. Journal it all. Ask what you need to see and know, and then listen.
It is time to live your soul’s plan. Trust. Begin. Today.
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Susan Sloane 